It's been along time since I have had someone I can talk to. Sure I can talk to Richard, but sometimes you just want that female conversation with a GREAT friend. Someone you can really relate to. Unfortunately I am so guarded with some of my feelings, I can't open up to just anyone. I had a friend like that but we parted ways a few years ago. She keeps popping into my thoughts the last few weeks. I even had a dream about her needing help. I think if I explain my feelings to Richard he won't bark so much, if I choose to communicate with her again.
The hard part is forgiving and putting myself out there again to possibly get hurt again. How do you recover from that? I know it is the Christian way to forgive and forget, but it is hard for me to do sometimes. For the greater good, I need to do the right thing. I guess I just need to rebuild my trust with this person and hope for the best.
She is someone that I can really relate to and she understands me. We were inseperable for a while there. She was someone I could tell all my secrets too and she would not even begin to judge me. I was an aunt to her kids and she was to mine.
Maybe God is telling me she needs me to help her find her path back to church. I am not sure. There are reasons for everything, I just need to find the reason for this.
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